The first time it happened I felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. It was my first “dance” with God.
At daily mass, I sat in my seat and really focused on connecting with Him. This exact moment was right after the Church said “Lamb of God, You take away the sins of the world, have mercy on us. Lamb of God, You take away the sins of the world have mercy on us. Lamb of God, You take away the sins of the world, grant us peace.”
Right after the word “peace” was said, I felt this beautiful, tingly, feeling and I could see myself ballroom dancing with God. It was the most random thing ever, but I enjoyed it so much. God and I were in an elevated, cloud like setting, and that’s all there was to it. Just God and I together – ballroom dancing.
You see, being a Christian young woman is about putting God at the center of my life. Being a Christian young woman is about longing to ballroom dance with God every single time I’m at mass. It is about desperately wanting to be close to God, because I know it doesn’t get better than that. I am constantly disciplining myself so that I can remain pure and holy in hopes of learning more about myself and about God. I am by no means a perfect woman of God. It took me over 3 years to get this discipline. My journey has been a combination of fear, depression, anxiety, more anxiety, happiness, peace, appreciation, love, and most importantly trust. I am now aware that God will always be a part of my life, and I trust Him to guide me every step of the way. Being a Christian young woman is now part of my identity and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Nadia Tourjman is a recent graduate from Benedictine University. She has a passion for serving a variety of God’s people, especially children and homeless people. She grew up in the Melkite Catholic Church, but currently also goes to various Catholic Churches.