As I close my eyes and try to focus, thoughts stream into my brain. I feel like I have no control over my thoughts. Right now I am cold. My fingers are cold, my feet are cold, and my nose is cold. I close my eyes again and breathe in through my nose and out through my mouth, focus. I ate too much, I’m sleepy, I wasted too much time today. I stop for a few seconds, close my eyes, do the sign of the cross, and say a few words to God. I can barely put the words together to form a prayer.
Time and time again, I feel like I am not doing enough in my life because of lack of focus. I try to do a list of things each day, when in reality I only have energy for one or two of those things.
I eventually got fed up with constantly procrastinating in my spiritual life, so I decided to change a few things. I learned that trying to do 100 things at a time is simply not feasible. Focusing on one thing at a time helps me put forth quality effort on the task that I am completing. I also learned that writing down my progress is helpful, so that I can give myself credit for the good work I have done. I can give thanks to God for giving me the ability to get those things done.
Aside from focusing on the things that I need to get done, my most important responsibility is to focus on God. He is an all-knowing, all-loving, superpower that we can pray to and worship at any time of the day. It is extremely easy to put off praying, meditating, or reading the bible on a daily basis because we simply get caught up with worldly responsibilities. As a woman that wants to live a life devoted to God, it is absolutely necessary to give God my undivided attention. I know that I am not strong enough to do this on my own. It is my responsibility to seek help from the people in my life and from God Himself.
God gives us the tools we need to get His work done, so ask for help, pray, yell, think, but most importantly keep your eyes on God and focus.
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